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Alida: A 23-year-old Canadian exploring the infinite abyss that is New York City.

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Paper faces on parade - Sunday, Sept. 18, 2005
You can give me anything - Sunday, Sept. 18, 2005
I've heard there was a secret chord - Friday, Sept. 16, 2005
Even the best fall down sometimes - Sunday, Sept. 11, 2005
Whatever my lot - Thursday, Sept. 08, 2005

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I'm not exactly sure what to write today... I don't really have many profound thoughts. Living in the grey does that--it dulls the imagination and the senses and it makes everything seem so surreal that remembering it feels like looking through a fog at something that happened ages and ages ago, not something that happened 3 hours ago. And that's where I am right now. In the grey-ness of life, the stark reality of where I don't want to be. At the corner of Boredom and Apathy, searching desperately for a way out, looking for the third hidden road at the crossroads. And eventually, I'll find it, I know that. But right now, I don't even know that I want to. When I don't care, I don't have to worry as much... and if I look hard enough, I can still find bright spots of color in the grey world I inhabit, if only for a moment, and if only faint copies of what the real colors look like. Promises of the land outside my grey world; the world I hope to live in again someday.
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