Wed, Dec 5
... Just give it up
This is so frustrating. Why does it all have to be dragged out like this? I just want it all over; I don't want it to be such a big deal anymore. I don't want anyone else caught in the middle, I don't want anyone else dragged into it, and I don't want to be stuck in it any longer. Unfortunately, not everyone seems to feel that way, and things aren't being left alone. I don't understand why it's such a big deal anymore. I guess the upside to it all is that it's easier than I thought it would be. I thought it would be a lot harder, that the old memories would keep me here, but they're not, quite frankly. Oh, sure, I still have them, and they're not all bad, but right now, the good memories aren't enough to counteract the crap and make me wish it was still here.
Anyways, enough of that. I'm just getting myself more agitated than I need to be. And now I need to get changed and head to work. I was hoping to have more time to write, but I was on the phone to Telus, straightening out my phone bill. So, I'll write more later, because, honestly, my life doesn't suck that much. I'm just frustrated with certain aspects of it right now. :o)
infinite || abyss
posted at 2:51 p.m.