So now, I'm at a place where I don't want to do that with God. It's kind of the oppposite, but... The past 8 months or so have been really dry times, nad I don't want to fall into the trap of saying that "It was all bad. There was no time when God met me," because there was. There were times when I felt closer to God again; where I was as passionately in love with him as I had ever been. But the difference was that those were the moments, not the pattern. Oh, I know life isn't all feelings, and I know I'm not always going to feel his presence as strongly as I want to, but that wasn't just a matter of not feeling it. It was a matter of that connection not being there, or me not acknowledging it, except for the few times when it would come back to remind me of what I was missing.
No, the good times were there, but they weren't the standard, and therein lies the difference. I want the rule, not the exception, to be the intimate love with my Jesus.
infinite || abyss