It's strange to read my entries from a year ago. I almost don't like to, because I see how much I was deceiving myself, or at least trying to, and I realize how much I knew that I wasn't following. There are some entries that I just don't like to link back to, just because I was so confident of something that I shouldn't have been. I was so over-confident in far too many things that I shouldn't have been.
How much things change in a year. Thank God for that. If I was still there now... I don't know what I'd do.
It's a scary thing to look back and realize how messed things were and how far I've come from then.
And now I have to go get out of here to meet Laurel. Wish us luck!
One year ago today: I realized something today. For the first time, I think, I realized that what I need is balance. Okay, that's not the new part, but it's like every good thing has had to have been extrapolated to be too good. Every bad thing has had to have been taken to the extreme and become too bad. And that's where the problem lies. Because the good and the bad will come. And when the bad comes, I have to learn to deal with it right away. I think I'm learning that, and it's keeping things from getting too extreme.
infinite || abyss