Mon, Feb 11
... I want to dance
It doesn't look like I'm going to beat
Lyns' four entries for today (hehe), but that's okay; she can have more than me today. :o)
I want to dance. That's something I wish I'd learned to do when I was younger; I wish my mom had put me in dance lessons or something. I absolutely love the concept of using my body to express what words can't. I'm still developing that little facet of myself, but I'm learning. That's one reason I love theatre so much; I love the fact that it's so much more than just words. There's so much to it besides just what I say, and I love learning to use my body, my emotions, my voice, my words, my actions... all of it.
Sometimes, though, I just have to dance. I can't stand still. I wonder if I would have been good at it if that was my passion... if I was in a national ballet school or something like that; if I lived, ate, and breathed dance. I wonder how much I would love it... how engrained into me it would be.
It was very cool today, to play the Rach at the loonie lunch. It was unexpected. It was a surprise, and it was a release. I remember when I was working on that piece, I could easily spend an entire hour just working that one piece... it claims a piece of me every time I play it. It's taken hold of a piece of my heart, and I can't play it unemotionally anymore. Which is a good thing. It's a part of me now, in a way that no other song I've ever played has ever been.
I need a piano. I miss having one at my fingertips whenever I want to play it; whenever I need to sit down and release myself at the keyboard. I just can't do that on the spur of the moment anymore. I miss being able to.
In any case, I'm going to go find some scripts for Sharla for tomorrow, and then go to bed. Why am I so tired lately?
Oh, and congratulations to Mia!!
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posted at 11:02 p.m.
