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Alida: A 23-year-old Canadian exploring the infinite abyss that is New York City.

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Uncle Richard, me, and James Earl Jones - Tuesday, Apr. 04, 2006
So beautiful when the boy smiles - Sunday, Apr. 02, 2006
One way or another - Sunday, Dec. 25, 2005
Way up high - Saturday, Dec. 10, 2005
Reason to start over new - Friday, Dec. 09, 2005

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"Mado wrote, 'Honoria came to me today, saying, "I know that you are grieving because you are so merry. When your laugh is most free, then you are hurting most."'"

From The Other Side of the Sun by Madeleine L'Engle.

Is it that the laughter comes most freely through grief because it is there to hide the grief? Then it would not be true merriment, and the laughter would not be "free" laughter. No, I think that it is more that the emotions are more real, more vulnerable, less hidden. During the moments of the most extreme sadness, the most extreme joy, pity, anger, frustration, and all other emotions are felt, too.

The happiness is only as happy as the sadness is sad. When someone is already open and feeling a strong emotion, the emotions as a whole are more sensitive and able to feel everything else that must be felt. When nothing affects a person, neither joy nor sadness, nothing will be truly felt. The good will only be as good as the sorrow is sad.
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