I'm becoming more motivated, though. There are more reasons than ever before to be obedient. And yes, I know that's selfish. I know that there should only be one reason necessary to be obedient, but so often it doesn't work that way. It works far too often like I weigh the pluses and minuses of obeying God, and then when it finally gets desperate enough that it works to my advantage to obey, I do. That's totally the wrong attitude for it; that's not the way it should be, but...
I'm getting desperate enough. I'm getting to the point where I have no choice but to be obedient, because, as Laurel would say, "My life is descending into the toilets of hell and I have to go fish it out." Or something along those lines.
So... more later on all of this. It'll be an adventure, I can promise that. And it won't be an easy one. But for once, I'm going to do it right. For once, I'm going to take the road I need to take, and do my best not to look back.
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