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I felt a little bit like I should be jealous of Kat's life. And then I'm not. And then I am.

She's where I thought I would be when I graduated (or graduating). Married, starting a family, trying to fit a career around that, but not having it sa the first priority. It's the life that, when I graduated from high school, I pictured myself living in 5 years.

But then I look at my life, and I realizse that, while it's not where I thought it would go, I like it. This is my life, and I'm happy with it. No, it's not where it will be, and if I'm still exactly here in 5 years, I might not be so satisfied, but right now, this is the life I'm living and the life I've been given, and I like it. I've had all kinds of opportunities that I wouldn't have had if I'd been married at 20. I would have been a totally different person, with different opportunities, struggles, and blessings.

Then I talked to Kat tonight, and I told her, and she said the same thing. I'm where she thought she would be when she graduated--single, living with roommates, travelling, working, trying to start a real career with the degree...

It's like we're living each other's lives. Or, what we thought would be each other's lives. But in the course of the past few years, they've become ours.

And you know what? Even though we're sometimes a little bit jealous of the life we thought we'd be living, I don't think either one of us would trade it for anything.
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