And as I've grown up, what dreams have been shattered? How have I disappointed them? How have I been more than what they expected? What new dreams have they dreamed for me? Have I fulfilled or broken those ones? What would they have done differently as parents? Would they have given me more or less freedom; punished me for the same things; chosen their battles differently; been different from who they've been to me?
How much of themselves do they see in me? What characteristics do they look at and say, "I have no idea where she got that!"? Do they think I'll succeed someday, or do they look at me and think, "I have no idea where she's going and where she'll end up!"? Are they more disappointed or more proud of me than they are of my brother and sister? Do they wish I'd had had a different influence on those two? Do they ever think they've made the wrong choices as parents?
Sometimes, I wonder these things. But I know I'll never ask.
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