Where are you?
Where is everything that I held onto? Why is it that everything I know and everything I cling to is taken away from under me? Where is my faith? Where has it gone? Why isn't it there anymore? What did I do to make it go away? How did I end up stranded here?
Yet I know I can't give up. I won't give up on you. I can't. I can't give up on everything that I've been for my entire life. It feels pointless, but someday, I'll see the point again. I just don't know where to start to get there. And I'm scared to start. I'm scared to try to come up again. I've gone up and down, and I don't know if I can handle coming back up and then going down again. Better to stay down, is it not?
No, it's not. I know that. But I don't know it right now. I'm holding onto faith because it's all I've got left, and I'm clinging by ythe barest thread.
I've told people so many times all the advice I need to hear now; everything anyone else has ever told me, I've told someone at some point.
I'm just tired.
Where are you?
infinite || abyss