I realized that my life's built around repetition a lot, particularly because I'm in theatre. That was the weirdest thing to me about Kat and Christian's wedding. We only did it once. I'm so used to rehearsing everything for months, and then having anywhere from two to ten (or more) times in front of an audience to get it right. If something doesn't go right in one performance, you fix it for the next time. That's just the way life goes. At the wedding, the ceremony finished, and I was all ready to do it again to fix the glitches. What do you mean, it's just done once?
Hmm. Maybe theatre gives me a warped perspective on reality. Oh well. It's my warped perspective, and I like it.
However, I'm so glad that I'm not in Edmonton right now. We were supposed to have one more one-act festival to go to, and it got cancelled. Oh darn. I'm so disappointed. I really wish I could be there. Can you tell how heartbroken I am?
It's funny how there are things about leadership that really go against human nature. I mean, I think there's a part of most people that wants to be in charge and that wants to be able to boss other people around in some degree or another, but we (I) don't always like the amount of responsibility that falls.
For instance, when one of my crew--someone working under me--screws up, the blame falls on me from my superiors. I can then take it to whoever messed up, but I always want to blame them in the first place. "I'm doing my job, can't you tell?" Yeah, but if everyone under me isn't doing their job, I'm not doing mine well enough. That's just a simple fact. Everyone has their responsibilities, and one of mine is to pick up their slack. Which often means that I *gasp, shock* work harder than my crew. Wow, what a concept. The level of work shifts from the top down. The people at the top of the totem pole are the ones doing the most work; everyone else falls into place after that.
It's just an interesting observation. That's the way it should go, I think, but it kind of topples some preconceptions about leadership and being "in charge."
Anyways, I need to go finish compiling my shopping/to do lists for Joe. Monday's rehearsal will come quicker than I think it will, and there's a lot to do before then.
One year ago today: You know what I miss most about dorms? At least lately (well, besides Lynsae)? The built in social life. :o) You didn't have to go any further than 10 feet down the hall to find someone to do something with, whether it was just sitting in the lounge watching movies, taking a sev run, or going bowling. I mean, there were 40 of us there--there had to be someone there to do something with!
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