Wed, Mar. 20
... It's 3 a.m.
I had a dream last night, but I can't remember it now. It wasn't a weird dream, though; it was more of an...
I don't know what word I'm looking for here... inspirational dream. Or prophetic. I don't really think it was prophetic, but I can't think of a better word to describe it. It was a dream that seemed to have a message. Not like a freaky "from the other side" kind of message; it just played out some sort of situation where I could learn something from what was said and done in the dream. I woke up at around 3, just after dreaming it, and was awake for 1/2 hour or so, but did I think to write it down? Noooo... I didn't want to turn on the light. :op Oh well...
I've been doing that a lot lately--waking up around 3 a.m. for no reason. I'm not exactly sure why. Sometimes, I'll wake up for just a minute; sometimes for a while, but then after that, my sleep is never quite as deep. Almost, but not quite. And then I always wake up before my alarm goes off. Bleah.
I think I need... I don't know what I need. I can't believe I still have 10 minutes before I have to leave, and I've been up, dressed, and eaten a "real" breakfast already. That never happens. It just doesn't. I don't do mornings. And I'm frittering away the time at the computer, instead of doing something I really need to be doing.
And I'm going to go do something else right now. I'm going to... get ready to go to school, for my one class, and then I'll either come home or go to the library. It's been a while since I was at the library... I need some good juicy books to read; ones with meat on them, that will stretch me.
Because some days, I feel like I've curled up in a little ball to let my intellect and everything else atrophy while I wait for life to come to me. Maybe that's not the best plan.
infinite || abyss
posted at 8:57 a.m.
