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Alida: A 23-year-old Canadian exploring the infinite abyss that is New York City.

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Uncle Richard, me, and James Earl Jones - Tuesday, Apr. 04, 2006
So beautiful when the boy smiles - Sunday, Apr. 02, 2006
One way or another - Sunday, Dec. 25, 2005
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Reason to start over new - Friday, Dec. 09, 2005

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Wow... I hit the stroke of midnight. Completely coincidentally, too. And I'm finished my paper. Woo for me! At least, I'm finished the first paper. The second one? Tomorrow.

I'm still waiting for that one thing to come easily. Anything. I'm tired of fighting. I just want something. One thing. I'm just tired. I'm ready to lay down and just wake up when everything's good. When my life has fallen into place and all the missing pieces are there. Wake me up then, because I just need a rest from all of this. I don't want to feel perpetually sad, and I don't want to feel like it's all a mask when I feel happy. I did that for far too long last year. I don't want to do that anymore. I don't want to do this anymore.

I don't want life handed to me on a silver platter. That's not what I'm asking for. I'm just asking for something that doesn't seem like it's an impossiblity.

Blah. No more whining. That's enough for one night.

I think...

I think...

I don't know what I'm thinking anymore. I'm just ready to get myself into bed, fall asleep, and forget about everything for a while.
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