Mon, Aug 20
... It's a Romans 7 Day
Sometimes, I make myself sick. It's days like today when I really don't want to know, in any way, shape, or form, what other people think of me. My own thoughts are bad enough; I don't need other people adding to them. Someone please tell me why I'm sometimes such an idiot. Hang on, that just contradicted myself--I just said that I didn't want to know what other people think right now. Today's a Romans 7 day:
"I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do--this I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it. So I find this law at work: When I want to do good, evil is right there with me. For in my inner being I delight in God's law; but I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members. What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? Thanks be to God--through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, I myself in my mind am a slave to God's law, but in the sinful nature a slave to the law of sin." (v 16-25)
Oh, the last verse is a lifesaver. Thanks be to God! I don't have to keep being a slave to sin, I don't have to keep doing what it tells me I "have" to do. Through Jesus, I can become a slave to God, rather than a slave to sin. We're getting there. It's slow, but we're getting there. Like I said before, two steps forward, one step back. And this is definitely a step back, but that means that a step forward is next!
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posted at 11:27 a.m.
