But to totally switch gears... Last night at our fun lingerie party, Gini was talking about how there are two needs that only God can meet, and that part of preparing for marriage is to let God meet those and realize that no other person can. Those two are security and significance. That was really though provoking, because I know how much I crave security--I want, more that just about anything, for someone to be able to say "I love you" and mean it for more than what they can get out of it. I want him to be able to say it and fully mean it... One of my most favorite things in the world is just being held. Not doing anything "special" or anything like that; just being together, lying in bed, or sitting on a couch, or wherever, and just being held. For me, that's a physical expression of the emotional intimacy and security.
I've always known in my head that only God can be my ultimate security, but I think he's trying to drill it into my heart and my reality. There have been so many instances lately where it's come to people saying things like that to me... I just don't know how to let it become more than just something I know in one place.
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