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Alida: A 23-year-old Canadian exploring the infinite abyss that is New York City.

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Wow. I'm so unmotivated. I'm actually not minding classes and such, but I just don't want to be at work, and I'm already getting behind on my reading. *sigh*

In some ways I can't wait to be out of here, and in the "real world," but some days, I wonder how I'm going to handle it. I mean, how will I handle getting up for the same job, day in and day out, when I have trouble staying motivated for classes.

Hopefully I'll have a job that I love enough that I won't have constant problems with it, but there are always days when you have to drag yourself out of bed and into school, work, or wherever you have to be. No matter how much you love what you do, it'll never be exciting, fresh, and new 100% of the time. I wish it was, but unfortunately, that's not the way it works. We have such short attention spans, and maybe that's a generational thing--I don't know--but even if it is, that's the generation that I live in, so it's a reality that I have to face.

Can I go live on a deserted island somewhere? I'll come back when I really want to, but when I don't, I won't. Sound like a plan? Yeah, it sounds great to me, too.

I was just about to say that I wish I was still a kid, but then I remembered that being a kid involved going to school every morning, taking subjects that I really didn't like. Even less than I like some of what I have to take now. I didn't hate it, but if I'm trying to get away from this whole responsibility deal, I've got to figure out a better way to do it.

Hmmm. Anyone got any ideas?
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