Sometimes I wonder... Ellen has had such a similar life to mine, in her relationships and everything, that everything I've gone through, she has a parallel story. The whole works. She knows, which is so cool. She's been there and survived the whole thing, and she knows how I feel. What a God-thing that I work with her. I'm going to miss her a LOT when she leaves. Working with Marva just won't be the same. But she'll still be around, and Helen will still be here... I'm not losing them for good.
And I'm the grape on the gossip grapevine... I found out some rather interesting stuff from Ellen today, she was checking out what other people had told/asked her about me. It's crazy. I mean, my life is so interesting all of a sudden. It's not that entertaining, people! It's just my normal, boring, crazy, weird, life. Nothing for the entire church to worry about. But that's what happens, I guess. We all do it. It's just kinda crazy sometimes. :o) But it's not doing any harm at the moment, which is a blessing. Nothing too damaging or serious, and if there is, the people who love me will be the ones who will find out the truth about what's going on and who won't just settle for the rumors.
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